change

change. some people love it. some people hate it. im just one of those people who hate it. to me its so uncomfortable and i feel completely lost. it makes me so fustrated and i want to cry. i have this feeling inside that a lot has changed. and i dont know where its leading me. i dont know what to do about it. im stuck. i dont know where this change is coming from or why its even happening. i wish it could just go back to how it was before. i dont exactly know where im going with this post. but this is how ive felt for the last week. i dont know if its just me overreacting or what but its killing me inside. the one good thing is my pastor let me borrow Francis Chan’s other book, Crazy Love. i cannot put that book down! its soo good! ive learned a lot from that book. and i think ive already had to use some of what i learned this week. i didnt really want to use it because i needed it for bad situations haha. but luckily im getting thru. and i trust God that He guides me to do the right thing. and that i wont worry about today or tomorrow. so yea. i just needed to write. and express how fustrated i am aha. oh btw! happy birthday to ryan and chelsey! and yesterday to eric! and monday to andrew!(: thanks for being a part of my life. i couldnt live without you guys <3

a new leaf

i cant believe this year is almost over. in a way im glad that the new year is coming but then again this year was pretty good. i can say that im very fortunate for the many things that has happened (: but at the same time very sad at what has come to be. im so excited for christmas! i get that feeling inside that its going to be special(: so october is now gone and november has just started. school is getting a bit better. i realized on my last post i never said happy birthday! to michael! haha so happy birthday to you! rofll thanks for being such a great friend that i can depend on. and i hope we can be great friends for years to come(:  ohh! and happy belated halloween! this year was actually a lot of fun. the people were fun and i didnt get stuck in the booth this year! but lately ive had a lot of nice chats with people, and learned new things that i would never have expected. over the past few days have been up and down as school, soccer and family stress are kicking up. but luckily the words of Matthew 6 have encouraged me to persevere. and one thing that stuck out to me today was in Forgotten God, Francis Chan asks “Do you trust God when He says no or ‘not in this way’ to you, you still believe He is good and doing what is best?” so keep that in mind.

harvest fest 09′ more to come (:

Forgotten God

so lets continue this..

i have a journal that i write down my thoughts and certain things about my relationships with others including my relationship with God. i stopped writing in the journal because i was always too busy or when i felt like writing i didnt want to release more emotions from thinking about my struggles. I finally started writing in it again because i decided to take it with me to school and write when im on the bus. I become at ease after writing in it even about the simple things. I also started reading Forgotten God by Francis Chan. (thank you carissa for accidentally leaving your book-i hope i finish it before you come back home). When i started it, i was so pumped up to read more about the Lord and to study more about how our relationships should be with Him. So while i was reading it, Francis Chan talks about how we ignore the Holy Spirit and how we go around knowing about it but doing nothing about it or forgetting that its there and forgetting how it has impacted our lives. At first i was thinking, i dont know if this is the book for me now and i got kinda sad cuz i was so pumped up to read it. i felt that it wasnt the book for me because i thought that i wasnt ignoring the HS all the time. so the next day i was reading over some of my old entries and i realized how blessed i am in everything that has happened. some things are quite an epic story but they wont be revealed for a few more years haha. but even the small things like arguments with my mom or my soccer. the results turned out for the better and it was all thanks to JESUS! i saw all the works God has done in my life and how i was ignoring God and the HS. i became so amazed by it so when i read Forgotten God again my face was stuck in that book haha. and isnt it just amazing how God timed this epiphany? so dont forget! haha (:

Long time no blog

wow. its been MONTHS since ive updated this. ive wanted to for awhile but ive been soooo busy! sophomore year has been CRAZY! i never thought id be up so late/working so hard. i still have two more years of this.. danng haha. well so lets see whats new. my sister officially was disowned from my house. haha jk she just moved into her new home up in SLO! i miss that girl. but she came back last weekend so it was nice seeing her. i realized how much she has NOT changed haha.In addition, my gung gung died two weeks ago ): so it was really tough on my fam, esp my mom. i never thought it would be THIS rough. esp since its not the first time. and since ive been so stressed out and busy i didnt even really take the time to mourn i guess. so during the funeral was really toughh but through God’s grace, we’re getting/got thru it. and my team my team! BRM U-19 is undefeated as of right now with 3 games to go! i cant believe i could be going gold! itd be sweet. and i have so far made the first cut for varsity! so hopefully i can continue to work hard without getting hurt and make varsity this year. i thank God everyday for this opportunity that He has given me. Through Him all things are possible! oh and last weekend my sister and i went with my neighbor to the taste of long beach. IT WAS SO YUMMY. haha so much good food. i was in hog heaven. and we won a laker hat that was signed by farmar. too bad im not a laker fan! haha but its still worth keeping(: and last weekend papa jung turned the big 50! omg right? haha crazyyy. he doesnt act like it tho rofl.  so anyways, i think like always im gonna post another thing for more of what i have to say haha it fits better like that. so yea. i think that covers about all that’s going on in the life of shaina jung. so lets hope this truly becomes more of thedailyjung yea? haha

500

days of summer! omg i love that movie sooo much. its prob not all that great to some people but i thought it was AMAZING. im shocked i was able to see it in theatres (i never go to the movies) and im so glad i did! i loved it so much. it was so realistic. and yet at the same hinted things that were so inspirational. it truly wasnt a love story. and it didnt have a “disney” ending. but it was such a unique movie that was funny and had a greater meaning. i just am obessed with it. and the actors they chose were perfect. Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon-Levitt. perfect. theyre cute. and Joseph Gordon-Levitt just grows onto you haha. also the OST was amazing too. i love every song haha. i really give props to the production of the movie. there were lyk subliminal messages of how the story would be going either up or down. and the story line just showed how sometimes we get caught up in things when we’re completely blinded. the main character’s little sister Rachel said, ” I know you think she was the one, but i dont. Next time you look back, i think you should look again”. This is so true. its crazy what our minds get crazy over and we forget about all the other parts of it. Like with God too, we get caught up in all the things in our life but we dont look to God. or we forget that He should get all the credit. so go watch the movie if you havent! you wont regret it. (:

Opening Doors

so as usual. im really slow with updates. so let me fill you in from the last time i posted. which was about a month ago -.- so 3 days after we got home from eating like pigs my sister and i got our wisdom teeth pulled. oh it was hell. haha i swear i lost 5lbs. all the weight from the cruise and more! hahaha nah but it was okay. just got to sit at home and do nothing. so heres to part of my blog title. opening doors. you would think that this would be summer 09~ continued. but within my summer, God has opened a lot of doors. i was struggling with soccer during last semester because i wasnt going to have a team for this upcoming season. luckily, God came to my rescue and has given me the opportunity to play with a GU-19 silver elite team. yayy! there were other things too but that one was one that has given me the biggest relief ever haha. so then back to summer. i had registration. i basically sat at school for 4hours trying to get/fix classes. every day i was dreading to start school. i didnt want to go at ALL. i wasnt happy with my schedule and i wasnt so sure about my friends either. when last year ended i didnt want it to. bleh. so ridiculous. anyways so whether i wanted it to or not school started. OMG its soo much harder. i was up late on the first night. so ridiculous. and friends were still kind of difficult but its getting better. i have faith in God that itll be fine. so lets hope for a great successful stress free sophmore year! YAYYY haha

summer 09~

well i havent updated in a longg time. summers almost over -.- i register for classes next week sigh.. so lemme start from the beginning of summer. i basically had one week of freedom after i got out of school and then it was off to summer school. yayy! -.- i took psych and econ. thank goodness i did okay. then i went up to the lovely city of San Francisco to visit the family. My great-grandpa had his 94th birthday yayy! (: and we celebrated with a picnic. It was nice hanging with the cousins-midnight bowling or just tlking it up all night. After we came home we had to pack for our next big adventure: cruise to Mexico! hollaa! haha jk so we were on a cruise for a week. it was fun and nobody got sea sick on the actual boat. we hit puerta vallarta, mazatlan and cabo. Puerta vallarta we took a tour of the city. it was pretty nice, got to learn some history. But when we went to the flea markets omg! the people attacked us. worse than chinatown not gonna lie. you would just point and they would say hola amigos come in my store you like you like? i give you good price. all day long thats what i heard. and it was pretty funny cuz everyones looking at us lyk theyre asian! wtheck whered they come from?! it bugged me at the moment but thinking about it now it was pretty hilarious. Mazatlan there wasnt much to do cuz it was industrial. we could see the beer factories from our balcony. and there were federali everywhere so we were lyk ehh. not gonna go haha. then cabo. that was my favorite. it was really hot at first and everyone was trying to get us to go on a glass bottom boat to see stuff but it wasnt really interesting. so finally we decided to go on this one guys boat cuz he seemed like he knew what he was doing and he offerred to take us back to port hahaha. we were too lazy. and it was beautiful! the arcs and the fish. the boat was really small so carissa got sick. luckily she didnt feed the fish. haha then we tried another flea market and they didnt bother us! yayy! haha so we went shopping YESS! ahaha and then we came home. and now here i am typing this after being up for hours upon hours. i think im gonna sleep again haha so im out!
im so tired. so check the fb for pics!

class of 09

congrats to the class of 2009! im gonna miss you guys! graduation was last friday. it was really nice and organized. didnt get to see as many ppl as i wanted to but thats what you get for going to a school of 4000 students haha. im so sad shockingly. gonna miss them a lottt.

memorial day weekend

so i missed school wednesday and thursday cuz of sickness and that redo brochure. then i went back friday and my teacher said oh you can use your original brochure. WOW thanks. that was such a pain. -.- so watever im done with that project! WHOO. and then track. i got pulled up to varsity for the 4×4 relay as an alternate. WHOO and lebron james made a beautiful 3! WHOO! (: and then a 3 day weekend WHOO! ahaha saturday the power went out. sunday i had church. it was pretty chill. and then i went to my friend stephanie’s house. it was fun. we watched bridewars and get smart. and then did a bunch of crazy random stuff. and today all ive done is hw -.- only 8 more days left of school! imma miss them seniors tho =/

almost better? siike.

so i have this really big bio project and i turned it in yesterday. hallelujah! and then i forgot to scan my brochure for it so i havta do it all over. -.- and to make it worse im sick.whoo! haha jk. lets hope this passes soon. oh and as for track i totally got owned haha >< oh well. at least its done. so yea. im home sick so i think a movie or too sounds good! (: